“The most satisfying aspect of composing a post is when God gives me the inspiration for what to write. I have such an urgency to start sharing the ideas. I experience great joy learning someone took the time to read it and benefited from the effort. I promised God that if He guides me in what to say, I will be vulnerable, honest in this public forum.”
A testimony of one of the Ask God Today Contributors:
Jayna Coppedge wants to be known as “A Woman Trusting God” because that is her new nature. Even as a Christian, fear of rejection, fear of the future, and fear of failure colored every decision she made. She was a diligent follower of Jesus and a church staff member for more than 15 years before she truly understood God’s unconditional love: “I taught about God’s grace without ever feeling God’s acceptance.”
“I knew that Jesus forgave me for my sins when I was six years old. The goal of my life even as a teen was pleasing Jesus.” Knowing this, you would assume that Jayna never struggled spiritually, but you would be wrong. No one ever grows in Christian maturity without wrestling with God.
She was a Bible-reading, church-attending young woman, scared that if she strayed God would zap her. Expecting disaster, rape, murder, or cancer to be imminent, she wrote letters to her children to be read on their birthdays. She did not think she would live to see them grow up. She believed God’s grace had saved her, but that with salvation she had incurred a debt. No matter how many good works she did, she always felt God’s dissatisfaction. Unconditional love, for her, was only imaginable in the afterlife.
Spiritual Healing Replaced Fear with Love
Jayna’s spiritual healing was a process. God used people. “I felt God’s unconditional love through my husband, Steve. I loved my children. I started realizing that God loved me even more than I loved my children.”
Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will. (Romans 12:2 NIV)
She met with a Christian psychologist who taught her how to recognize a lie from Satan and to replace it with a truth from scripture. “Dealing with a painful childhood, choosing to believe God requires determination. God was the surgeon providing the healing; at times surgery was excruciating and recovery was slow. I would repeat mantras in the grocery store. Beth Moore’s books provided me with ‘I am who God says I am. God is who He says He is. God’s word is alive and active in me. I am believing God.’”
“There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love. (1 John 4:18 NIV)
People who meet her now are surprised to know her past. “Actually, even those close to me didn’t realize the effort it took for me to become whole. Outwardly, I was the ideal Christian. The healing was gradual, and it did require a prescription antidepressant.”
“I did not realize that I had changed from the woman living in fear to the woman trusting God until about eight years ago.” At that time, Jayna’s single daughter moved to the Middle East so she could share Jesus with Arabs. “Although I miss my daughter, I don’t worry about her. I have the most incredible peace from God. The goal of my life is for God to be evident, and for Him to receive glory. I realize that sometimes the cost is high. If my daughter is hurt, I will grieve more than I can imagine, but God is always good.
“Learning to walk in faith has changed my response to every life challenge. Now that fear is no longer my primary emotion, I am sadder when I see the consequences of sin, I am more content and peaceful, I am freer to accept myself, and I give more grace to others. In almost every post I write, I attempt to share the limitless courage and hope provided by Jesus.”
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