My own little “pity party”.           Pity Party pic

As I sat there having my own little “pity party” yesterday, I realized once again how much I need the Lord.  I need His love; His comfort and I need His touch. Instead of being “touched by an angel”, I need to be touched by the Master Healer, Jesus!  Sometimes, especially as women, we let the world swallow us up with doubt, loneliness, insecurity and sometimes even hopelessness.  We feel we just can’t seem to get it right, no matter how hard we try.

Now, most of the time, I have it all together and life doesn’t usually pull me down too much. I am not a person who mopes around feeling sorry for myself. The occasional kid worries or if there is more month than money, are my main “joy zappers”. I have my hand and my heart in many things. But even those of us who have complete trust in the Lord, at times have moments of doubt. I am who I say I am, and I do what I say I am going to do. I don’t just talk the talk, I try to walk the walk. So, when things go wrong, as they sometimes do, I most the time just cry and stuff it down deep inside of me and only God, my hubby (if it doesn’t involve him), and maybe one or two friends know it. Can I get a witness?

I didn’t know…

I didn’t know I was a “stuffer” until I did the Bible study “Unglued” by Lysa Terkeurst. Most people are either a stuffer or an exploder. Or sometimes people stuff so long, and they explode. Oooh, that cannot be pretty.

Yesterday, after a few days of stuffing my feelings down, I finally just let it all out. I asked on Facebook, “Do you ever feel invisible? Unnoticed or forgotten? Just keeping it real. Feeling a little down, Ugh! Praying!” One thing you will discover about me, I am not very good at stuffing for very long. I really kind of wish everybody was like that. But, all my sweet FB friends tried to encourage me and tried to make me feel better. I am so thankful for all of them. I guess, I really wasn’t looking for sympathy, as much as I was wondering  “is there anybody else out here who can relate?” Why do we all stuff our feelings instead of just letting our friends know we are struggling? I guess maybe I am too transparent. But, we all struggle. You can’t live in this world without struggling and if you hold it in all the time, eventually you are going to EXPLODE. Are we embarrassed and think we can’t let people know, or do we think we should just keep it all together?

I have been touched by the Master, the Healer!

Have you been touched by the Master? When Jesus walked the streets of Jerusalem He touched people. He healed people. He cared about their hurts, struggles and insecurities, therefore He did something to heal them, change them or enrich their lives.

Then he touched her, and instantly she could stand straight. How she praised God! (Luke 13:13 NLT)

Then he touched their eyes and said, “Because of your faith, it will happen.” (Matthew 9:29 NLT)

When Jesus arrived at Peter’s house, Peter’s mother-in-law was sick in bed with a high fever. But when Jesus touched her hand, the fever left her. Then she got up and prepared a meal for him. (Matthew 8:14, 15 NLT)

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I am a survivor.

I am a very transparent survivor. I write so the whole world (not that the whole world sees), but, I write so the world will just maybe find something I write helpful. I want people to know, they are not alone. Other people have the same problems, the same struggles and hurts you do. The only way I ever get past my hurts and struggles is to let Jesus, the Master Healer, touch me. We don’t have to share all the details. Nobody really needs to know. But, sometimes when you do share, you may just find you are not alone. There maybe some sweet young teenager going through a time of loneliness, or a single mom who can’t meet all her bills, or someone who is doubting their worth and may even feel like ending it all. I am here to tell you, there is nothing the Jesus I serve cannot fix, change, heal or improve. He wants to touch your life. Then He wants a relationship with you. He will take away your loneliness, He will help you find a way to pay all the bills and He says “You are worthy”.

Inspired to write.

I have an urge, which is deep down inside of me to write so others may find a little hope.  I write so others will hear, “God loves you”.  I write to let others know, “you are not alone”.  So when the urge came to write something I believe the God who loves you and loves me, allowed this moment of doubt and insecurity in my own life so I could share with you.  As I was searching through the Bible, He gave me the following verse.  I know it is God who inspires me to keep speaking truth, even when I feel no one hears or even has time to read.  If I only write for an “audience of One” I know He is who I desire to please.

“Then the Lord reached out and touched my mouth and said, “Look, I have put my words in your mouth!” (Jeremiah 1:9 NLT)

Ask God Today:

  1. Ask God to touch you with His comfort, His strength and His love!
  2. Ask God to help you overcome the doubt, the loneliness or the insecurity you are  feeling.
  3. Ask God to use you to help and encourage others, by sharing what He has done in your life with them.


Have you been touched by the Master? If so, please leave me a comment and tell me what God is doing in your life.

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About Brenda McGraw

Brenda McGraw is the founder of Ask God Today Ministries where a team of writers share hope and truth with others. She has a God-given dream to reach the masses with the gospel of Christ. Brenda is an author and speaker who reveals how to discover joy beyond the clutter of life. She draws from her own life experiences in the #1 Amazon Best seller,“Joy Beyond, 28 Days to Finding Joy Beyond the Clutter of Life”. She has two new books released. Finished, Top Ten Steps to Finish Writing a Book and Living Uncluttered, An Abundant Life Bible Study. Brenda lives in South Carolina with her husband, Jeff and one of their five children. She is a survivor of breast cancer and a heart attack. Despite the challenges she has endured, Brenda found peace through her relationship with Jesus Christ.
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